forever till forever meets no end

Wednesday, November 14, 2007 @10:08 AM

havn't blogged at all since the start of the holidays cause honestly, nothing good, worth blogging has happened. turning down national team for the god knows how many time, hearing the phone ring 20 times a day for my detestable sister isn't at all appealing.

for god's sake, her friend calls 20 times a day. and is so damn rude "hello, i want to speak to elizabeth. why isn't she at home? tell her to call me back." its always like that. 20 times a day is enough to make anyone sick. even i don't talk on the phone that many times in the day and even when i make those one or two calls, its AT NIGHT. even cheryl ho doesn't call me that many times the most is 2. wth lah my sister is 6 and already unbearable i wonder how i'm going to survive with her for the rest of my life. like i get scolded for making 1 phone call and i'm ordered to get off the freaking phone no matter how important the phone call may be like i'm discussing some important matters or something. BUT my dear sister can get calls 20 times a dayand my dad treats her as HIS little princess and never says a harsh word to her.

my brother is better, not yet any better he will bug the hell out of me till i finally allow him to play maple on my lap top. so more often then not i allow him to since i intend to stay alive for a few more years. my brother got ROLE MODEL STUDENT for the freaking 3rd or 4th year running and my parents are just simply elated, topped with the fact he came in second in class. they were making such a fuss over him at dinner, i ate once again like a bird so i could escape. my brother gets praised so much over the stupid model student and 2nd in class award. yet when i get 3 golds and 2 silvers during competition, i don't get a single bit of praise. why? because that same day my brother didn't do well for his swimming nationals so my parents felt praising me wouldn't be good since he was so down and praising my would remind him he didn't do well.

where the hell is the logic you tell me? my once again detestable sister of 6 comes back with no less then 4 gold medals each interclub swimming meet and my parents never fail to praise her. for me its a different story. i'm not praised because it will make my brother unhappy.

wonderful i'll just live the rest of my life without a another bit of praise since my brother is never gonna do well in swimming anytime soon. though he may be fast, people are faster.

see so thats why my holidays have been utterly unbearable. screw this life of mine, i HATE it.
this is the reason i havn't been blogging. because there isn't anything happy to blog about. and i still havn't completed the tributes to 205.